i just want to cry.

release all the burdens i've been carrying it around ,

for like weeks?

crying with comforting arms hugging me ,

comforting me.

to just cry. and cy. and cry.

I SO NEED ALL THE LUCK FOR MY NAHU.

i got something to declare to bloggers

(actually its so not important)

yes , im so like the-girl-with-no-energy.

my life is like so boring! yes , boring. haha

going to and fro school. do my homeworks.

finishing the so never ending projects.

and the routines continue.

so nothing interesting at all. school days?

wahh , you can say is like HECTIC!

teacher entered , study. teacher go out , another teacher entered.

its like no intervals at all.

&& im so NOT loving wednesday. boo , to wednesday!

but i love being in my class. haha

the only thing i love about wednesday is ,

English period.

aww bebeh , english period , never fails to make me laugh.

make me AWAKE , thats the important thing.

Sir Zul , you rock my life! (:

wednesday , the day drags like what-the-ever.

it drags i tell you. from the periods to the teachings.

to when the time will rings.

its so sleepy , so boring , so tiring. -____-"

my birthday wish to , Wardiah:

Happy Belated Birthday friend. may Allah bless you always.

thankyou for being my friend. wakaka (:

my birthday wishes to , Bro Farid & Bro Afad:

(tomorrow , 31st JAN)

May Allah bless both of you. may HE showers both of you ,

with his blessings , rahmat and love.

all the very best in life.

& to bro Afad , webcam? *winks*

I NEED A PROPER REST. I WANT TO SLEEP IN.

& on top of everything ,

theres so many things to do , yet so little time.

الى زميلتي المحبوبة

بارك الله عليك

ok , english time. hahaha

well , (translating the above) , to my dearest sister ,

Nur 'Atiqah Bint Abd Malek Yee aka Malek Yee =p

Happy 15th Birthday tomorrow.

May ALLAH bless you my dearest sister.

sorry for the non-existence of present , i just cant

bring myself to drop at mwtai again for certain reasons.

im sorry sister & all the best in ur studies.

i love you sister.

to my dearest cuzzy ,

cuz , dont be sad my dear. we all know you had done the best!

so , dont be sad. we are here k cuz.

i sure want to give ur sis a great time before flying off ,

and ill ask brother & sister to come up with something special k!

i love you cuzzy. *hugs*

oh yes , it WAS snowing at syria like few days back.
it was certainly an experience for my sister.
hahaha. she called home and screamed like something bad happened.
screaming with delight , telling us that it was snowing.
well , luckily her for getting to play with snow. (:
tkcre sister. dont forget to come back ok.
& i do really wish , you could come home during June.

nice right? haha , and how i wish i am in syria.
( in your dreams la nisa. now you are at singapore. maybe four more years? )
i woke up this morning to find a surprisingly four missed calls.
from? the most unexpected person.
with 5 messages. haha.
was grumbling , and after the taklimat ( fulerrmaak~ panjaanngg ) ,
went to geylang and i had a plate of beryani ayam.
yumyummyy~ haha

oh btw , a note to all aljunied-ians.
Ustaz Hasbi is really leaving us soon.
he told the parents just now , hes leaving aljunied soon ,
to further up his studies.

oohh , how i hate this singapore airport.
first , watching my beloved sister flew off.
next , my dearest cousin flying off soon.
next , my dearest ustaz. ( this one , *speechless* )
whatever! -____- "

i wonder with those who love going to the airport ,
to relax and enjoy themselves.
airport , holds too many sad memories.
brought me to tears all the times.

will update again. bye.

yesterday was the O-LEVEL results day.

and i swear , i feel the vibes. haha

the only thing on my mind was ,

hows my results going to be next next year?

since its next year im going to sit for it ,

i can tell , im not prepared! >.<

whatever it is , congratulations to those who passed.

to those who failed , try again yaw!

dont ever ever give up hope. you can do it! (:

this few days , i was feeling so lethragic. so fatigue.

i just wonder why. i even gave up to do my homeworks ,

and ended up , feeling frustrated and shouted for my brother for help.

thankyou brother. haha

insyak's faslul idafii , was , how should i put in words?

erm , its was sleepy , thats for sure.

except some times. and i was perspiring!

and farhana , thankyou for hearing me blabb~ wakakaka

& thankyou for keeping me awake!

how i wish , i could speak arabic language fluently.

come friends , lets speak in arabic! (:

tests.datelines.homeworks.

and to my use-to-classmate , the guy who-runs-like-being-chased-by-a-dog

MUHD BAHAUDIN BIN ZULKIFLI ,

may ALLAH bless you always. tkcre.

friends forever and yes , i love you. (:

i just need a hug to comfort me.

a shoulder to cry on.

an ear to listen to my woes.

Nurhuda , Nurhanisa & Nurhida ((:

i love both of you! & i love you also brother.

(and i cant find a small pic of you so thats the reason your in-existence in my wallet.hehe)

and sister , thousands of apologies!!!!

my purpose of today's post?

short and simple.

to wish Hafi for his birthday tomorrow.

Well , dearest brother in Islam ;

May ALLAH bless you in life and showers you with his blessings and love.

all the very best in everything you do &

may our friendship last. *grins*

i love you brother! =D

and to my dearest bestfriend aka sister ,

tolong aku yar kawan? sessungguhnya , a friend in need is a friend indeed!

hahaha. aku sayang sama kamu banyak2! =)

and oh no , schooling tomorrow? sooo not in the mood la sey!

someone , lift up my mood to go to school.

anyone. anyone. anyone.

i just need a motivation to go to school.

arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh~

once bitten twice shy.

and thats what i guess is happening now.

i dont give a damn to whats happening now ,

but i certainly cant just close my eyes and ears

to whats happening right now.

close girlfriends , close boyfriends , and sisters ,

they know my plight. they understand me.

whereas the rest , they will only believe before getting the facts right.

mister , i got a question for you ,

" Why cant you leave me alone?"

mister , your actions , your words , made my life upside down.

isnt it enough for you , mister , to see me hurting?

doesnt it satify yourself , mister, not seeing me again?

mister , what should i do , for you to leave me alone?

mister , i beg you , to stop disturbing me.

stop ruining my life. stop ruining my friends' lives.

well mister , i dont know what to say , only ,

May ALLAH bless you with what you've done &

i wish you all the best in life.

i know , its seems weird after you , mister had destroyed

my happy life , i still wishing the best for you.

but at the end of the day , we are still brother & sister in Islam.

and im sorry mister , we can never be friends now or in future.

we were friends before , but now , you have the answer ,

why i dont want to be-friend with you , mister.

my last goodbye for you mister ,

GoodBye!

till here.

they are my absolute ectasy , making me high everytime.

(missing in picture , jakk & wani)

today was an absolute love. totally.

its much more fun and much more fun-filled

compared to yesterday's. to make it simple , being around my friends are love (:

aww , SHIRA , met you at last! haha

girl , you look kind of weird to me wearing irsyad's uniform.

all the best dear. ily , till we meet again.

andd , jengjengjeng , i met ,

USTAZ FATHURRAHMAN !!!!!

(ok tawuu giler! haha , tapii im so happy)

met him when i entered school , awww , he changed i can see that.

and i miss him like tons and loads! got to talk to him ,

and we exchanged news. and ustaz , im not lost there ok!

and aww ustaz , so sweet waiting for me to get married first. =p

pray for urself first k than can pray for me!

blueeekkk! haha but i still love you ustaz , despite you said im lost there.

MISS ZAITON , i miss you loads! hahaha

we crapped alot outside the teachers' room. and ily cher! (:

SIR SARIFUDIN , im not kelong okay? haha

USTAZAH ROSLINA , keep in touch ustazah. sayaanng ustazah!

well , to make it simple , i just miss crapping with them.

i just miss teasing and laughing with them.

both the students and teachers.

both my friends and my beloved teachers.

I MISS THEM!

BAHA , selamat maju jaya jgk utk kau!

and doakan waktanjong menang? insyaallah.

let the best school wins. haha

all the very best bro , ily! and yes , i miss the times when we crapped

in class. only the two of us. haha crraaapss~

I GET TO MEET MY FRIENDS & TEACHERS

AT LAST ! =D

whoaa~ its was certainly LOVE ,

and i really want to meet my beloveds again.

aww , met with the guys first and they didnt changed.

didnt changed in the noise they made.

aww , hafi , thats so adorable of you!

and rahiim , i want to talk to you.

except muhammad , he had grown i tell you.

hahaha. i love you all lah boyfriends. (:

my girlfriends aka. sisters ,

oohh , they are so much much love by me!

i love you all sisters and girlfriends. (:

my juniors , yes i miss you all.

my seniors , awww , i love you all.

my teachers?

ustaz salam , didnt get to talk to.

sir sarifudin , i miss you too sir!

ustazah habibah , hahaha. i know , no maknenek there.

madam mazda , tuka uniform not skin. haha

sir ghazali , oohh , i miss you too. and mwtai is the best? haha

ustaz fathur , i didnt get to meet him. *crying*

and yes , i cannot stop a person to talk right?

whatsmore if that person is never-been my teacher.

haiz. just hope that you get your facts right first!

im losing my respect for you , i swear.

i miss my teachers.

i miss my beloved friends.

i was greeted with the guys(O_o) ,

shouted Dayah's name and guess what , she was shocked!

haha , myra hugged me first and when

bestie hugged me , i nearly cried , i tell you!

i miss all of you.

i miss the times when we ate and laughed our hearts out.

i miss when we lepak-ed at school for hours.

i miss the times when we just chit-chatted for hours.

i want to meet you girls again. and for a longer time.

i love all of you yaw!

p/s: to my dearest friend , Nadhzryna

Get Well Soon my dear. i wish you a speedy with a 200km/h speed(lame) recovery yaw! ily dear.

p/s: to my two dearest friends , Wani & Ilah

I miss both of you. Missed seeing you as you were at home already

when i reached school. see you girls next time. ily both.

p/s: its just fate i guess to meet him after such a loooonng time

not seeing him and it flooded me with memories. hmpf!

LASTLY ,

HAPPY (insertnumberhere) BIRTHDAY to SIR GHAZALI

tomorrow , 18th January.

May ALLAH bless you sir.

HAPPY (insertnumberhere) BIRTHDAY to UKHT ZEELAH

tomorrow , 18th January.

May ALLAH bless you sis. ily sister and imy.

I GET TO MEET MY FRIENDS & TEACHERS

AT LAST!

thankyou yaw guys for encouraging me to

go inside. aww , i miss the times

when we ate together at the canteen.

when we stayed at school for hours.

when we chit-chatted for hours at school

despite the piling homeworks.

im quite dissapointed not getting to meet

ustaz-ku. hmpf! theres a next time. its ok.

get to meet SIR SARIFUDIN!

aww sir , i never forget you la sir. =D

and SIR GHAZALI ,

you so cute! (:

ok , i nearly cried when i hugged syahidah.

and i tell you , i miss her tons and loads.

well , i miss the rest too! tons and loads! =(

wani and ilah , why you go home so early?

i want to lepak with you girls again and this

time for a longer time can?

okbye. projects , homeworks. haiz

at first , i hesistated to send that message.

but after plucking my courage at last , send , sending , SENT!

whoa~ i miss ustaz. yes. ustaz fathurrahman ibn dawoed.

this message from him made me miss him more ,

yes , this is the message after i replied asking if he misses me.

ustaz , ana akan miss anta if ustaz pergi nanti.

ustaz , tkmo luper ana k ustaz. sayaanng ustaz sangat2! ((:

cute kan ustaz? i know , tengok ustaz saper lah kan. wakakaka *wink*

hes day of departuring is approaching and i dare say , im sure going to cry on that day!

i dread the day hes going to board that plane , and bid us goodbye

eventhough not a forever goodbye but , his departure ,

will surely be felt and i tell you , we and ME especially ,

surely going to miss him like so badly! *sobs*

enough about ustaz. now about me. haha.

bestie , bro hazmi's story is kind of unbelievable. who expected it.*shake head*

whos next? yours? *giggles*

& a big thankyou to Farhana yaw for helping me! ((:

i so love you. hehe and i love As and Diana too.

oh well , i love all sec 3/2s. gee~

okies. byebye.

Color: blue , of course! (:

Food: err , western food! *tapi still anak melayu k!*

Song: say goodbye from Chris Brown

Movie: aww , shrek3! *memories*

Sports: netball , of course!

Day of the week: use-to-be wednesday , now , erm friday?

Ice-cream: blueberry ice-cream *and now , im craving fer it*

Mood: happy! ((:

Taste Boys: boys? caring , loving , understanding & who loves me of course!

Clothes: t-shirts and jeans.

Desktop: my laptop , sprawled on bed.

Toenail: no favourties. haha

Time: i like , the time when im happy yaw!

Surrounding: when im with my beloved friends & cuzzies

Annoyance: when things dont go as i plan

Thoughts: to be with the one i love *ehem* & reuniting with my mwtai friends and teachers

Bestfriend: my first bestfriend? err , hannah(pre-school time).

Movie: its seems like ages ago. haha

Lie: whoaa~ ages ago?

Music: twinkle twinkle little star. **

Cigratte: never but hold it before. *i am a good girl k* (:

Car ride: havent got my license yet , so just hopped into the car.

CD: its seems like ages ago. haha

Dated your bestfriend: oh yes! and i love my date! ((:

Broken the law: school law , countless of times! haha

Been arrested: with police? not yet. wakaka

Skinny-dipped: err ,

Been on tv: in my dreams yes. haha.

Kissed someone you dont know: yes. and i know that person after that.

5 things you are wearing: my school uniform , tights , earrings ,

hair band and my promise ring. (:

4 things you have done today: woke up , wash up , go school ,

study and sleep in the bus.

3 things you can hear now: sayang-sayang from aliff aziz ,

me , typing and my father doing i-dont-know-what

2 things you do when you are bored: message my friends and

laze on bed.

1 thing you feel like doing now: hugging someone. (:

alhamdulillah. 15 years had past since i was born into this world.

and i thank GOD , for giving me another oppurtunity to live ,

and devote myself to HIM. insyaALLAH.

well , nothing much changed since i turned 15.

still the same me , still the same life. (cume diff sch jek!)

thankyou friends for the wishes. thankyou ainnabila , fer wishing me like ,

like exactly at 12am! haha. i was surprised to receive the message.

thankyou you , fer calling me up just to wish me.

thankyou dearest friends. thankyou! ((:

i dont know why , i was just dissapointed. haiz.

i know , you would think im making a big thing from this.

but is it so difficult to message me at my no? why do you have to message sister?

haiz. ok whatever!

and i cried in the morning of my birthday.

cuzzy vina , maybe what had happened ,

ada hikmah disebaliknya. so ,

just accept it though i know its hurting the inside you.

but have this in mind , "this is what ALLAH thinks its the best for me. and this is what ALLAH

had planned for me."

so cuzz , life is too short to be sad k! be happy. ily lah cuzz! ((:

bye.

yay-ness. turning 15 like in less than 24hrs! ((:

and going to apply for my IC next week!

double yay-ness! HAHA

thankyou friends fer the advanced birthday wish.

DILA , yes , 15 nampak 15 nampak! =p and sis , bear with the sleepy-ness ok

for the next 11 months? *wink*

i received 5 missed calls from the person i least expected to call me again!

whoaa~ and im so sorry for not picking up your calls.

well , you called me like middle of the night la dear , im sleeping!

haha. sorry and we will talk long long again this morning k

like what we used to do. (:

and yes , HAPPY BIRTHDAY to brother dzul. (:

may ALLAH bless you bro.

and i miss my sister la sey! sister , i know you've fell in love with Syria ,

BUT , dont forget your hometown ok sister.

waiting and counting the days for you to come home la sey!

and my cuzzy sis aishah is departing like soon.

why is that so eh? like how fast time flies.

so whens my turn? wakakaka. 2 or 4 more years?

errr , i forgotten what i want to write. so forgetful la nisa.

ok , chiow.

idk , really , whats happening now.

hmpf!

school just know , the chemistry period was so cute!

sec3/2, you know i know.

wakakaka (:

well , its a real surprise to know that at least ,

a chemistry period spelled F-U-N !

well , im beginning to enjoy myself at school.

adilah , adilah pandai kan? sampai tudung kene marker. HAHA

futhermore , just now after the tilawah period ,

got kind of heart-to-heart talk with all girls.

and im desprately wanting to go home! well , need to be somewhere after that.

and i had a real laugh and was kind of kecoh-able that time.

no school tomorrow. can sleeeeeeepppp~

countdown-ing to my birthdayy~

i just got several things to tell.

firstly , BITTAUFIQ WANNAJAH

to my dearest senior , Brother Afad.

you can do it bro! (:

and i tell you , i truly agree with what we chatted earlier.

HAHA. all the best brother.

secondly , im loving hello panda chocolate & strawberry.

thirdly , gimme a F. gimme an I. gimme a F.

gimme a T. gimme an E. gimme an E. gimme a N

in three more days! (:

fourthly , ( nisa kate sikett jek?! lagii cket ok? jaaaap je! haha )

life in aljunied is oh-so-lovely. im loving it can?

the environment , the friends , the events.

abang nuzul is so adorable. wakakaka. (ok giler!)

and im loving my secthree life now. and have to mug and just mug.

well , the five guys were transferred over and what Sir Zul said make sense.

hahaha (:

ok daah! ila huna faqad. ilal liqa'

awww , thats so sweet.

HAHAHA.

so today , significance the fourth day of school ,

and i can say that , im quite loving it.

theres something i want to share ;

Sir Zulkifli said : ' a normal teacher is someone who teaches ,

a good teacher is someone who reminds whereas

an excellent teacher is someone who inspires. '

actually , nothing important but somehow , i just want to share.

crazy me , yes , i know. oh yes ,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY to my beloved daddy!

awww , i love you daddy!

May ALLAH bless you with happiness , prosperity ,

health and all the good things in life.

world greatest daddy , thats YOU! (:

and also , to my classmate , Fifi ,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

May ALLAH bless you dear! (:

despite the fact that its only the fourth day ,

homeworks are piling up. projects are piling up.

extra classes and i can tell you , insufficient sleep and rest will follow.

ok daaa~ my birthdaay is approaching! ^^

firstly , happy 17th birthday to

may ALLAH bless you with all the good things in life bro.

stay happy always brother. (:

secondly , i know today is also the birthday of my classmate

but somehow , i forgot her name. wakaka.

sorry yaw , but nevertheless , happy birthday! (:

saturday , no school! (: and i slept in.

well , its been an insufficent sleep for me for the past few days.

hahaha. and you know what ,

i've just received a letter from the IC department ,

saying that im suppose to make an IC.

yay! haha , at last an IC of my own (:

well , not now though. after my birthday. haha

im beginning to love the life at Aljunied though.

hahaha , the only thing is that , i just need to make

more new friends and thats it. its gonna be love! (:

oh well , despite that , im missing my beloved friends!

im missing ustaz! im missing teachers! haiz

byebye.

i tell you , how i wish i was back at wak tanjong with dearest friends

and teachers , of course! haha

BUT , i did not regret changing school.

its fun at Madrasah Aljunied , with newly made friends.

the only thing that makes me so weird as i ,

MISS MAKING NOISE ! hmpf!

my life at Aljunied.

well , im the one of the quiet-est girl.

im beginning to like being the school with the friends ,

BUT , the thing is , i dont even know the teachers' name.

well , not all though. wakakaka (:

thankyou all for the well-wishers & moral support.

pray for me always. insyaALLAH addua' biddua'.

IM SO MISSING MY BELOVED FRIENDS - SYAHIDAH , 'AISYAH , DAYAH , WANI ,

JAKK , ILAH , TIKS and NURUL.

and the rest too ok (:

IM MISSING USTAZ AND TEACHER too! hahaha.

nak jumpe ustaz :(

byebye.

my first day of school at aljunied?

only GOD knows how i felt.

nearly cried , yes , during the prayers' time.

call me crybaby or whatsoever ,

but that what i felt when i was at the prayers' hall.

and just now , was the first time ever ,

i was quiet in school. not as noisy as i was at wak tanjong.

ok. i miss my friends and teachers.

bye.